2003-10-07 - 11:16 p.m.

I Have Decided To Fake It

Have you ever heard the expression "Fake it 'till you make it"?  Well I have.  I have decided that I am going to pretend to that I like my job and am interested in it.  Maybe if I pretend that I have the best job in the world something good will come of it.

We'll see.  My deciding to fake it lead to the decision that I would go in and work on Sunday.  I stayed late on Monday.  I had a lot of work to do.

We had a big company meeting today where the president asked us all what we liked best and least about working at our company.  We were all quiet and did not want to say anything because usually that results in our having to do more work.

I faked it and volunteered for a "committee" pretending to be enthusiastic.  Life is great now and I am very happy and very lucky to have a great paying job.

I talked to my friend Dorothy when I got home.  I helped her move to a new apartment about a week ago.  It is very nice.  It is a one bedroom apartment with high ceilings and all new everything.  The apartment market in the metro area is great for the buyer.  She is getting a good deal.  I am really happy for her. She has been through a lot and now it looks like things are starting to turn around for her.

My friend Joel is getting married in about a week. I am going up to North Carolina for his wedding.  I am looking forward to it.  I have not talked to him in a few weeks and need to catch up with him. See how nervous he is or if he is ready to chicken out.

The fling I had with Christy ended pretty quickly.  I don't know what to say about it.  It was nice while it lasted.  It is just another example of my inability to attract a sane woman.  She told me I should figure out why I avoided long term intimate relationships.  I told her that our relationship was physical and not intimate.  I did not tell her that I was not avoiding anything. I knew as soon as I met her that she was meant for someone else.  I don't know who.  But I knew it was not me.

She is attractive and interesting, to a point.  I don't know. It just wasn't there.

Whatever.

I am reading a book, a biography, of author Patrick O'Brian. He is one of my favorite authors and, I might add, one of the best writers of the 20th century.  Soon the movie version of two of his books will hit the theaters.  I have been looking forward to this for a while.

I have just started the book but have already learned a lot about him.  He is not an Irish author.  He was born to a German family in London.  He had an odd childhood, was a child prodigy writer, changed his name and became estranged from his family.  Over the next few decades he created a new identity for himself and created a new biography that sounded better than his actual life and was more fitting for the persona he preferred.

Just amazing.

That's it.  It's time for the Daily Show with their election returns for California. What a debacle that is.  If the people of California elect Arnold Schwarzenegger as governor just because he is a popular actor then they deserve everything they get.  The poor saps.

Jimmy
 
 
 
 
 
 

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