2003-05-06 - 10:01 p.m.

No, I've Just Been Busy

Last week was very rough.  I worked a hell of a lot in order to get Friday off.  In four days I worked about 50 hours.  I was exhausted.  On Friday I had a lot of stuff to do, lots of errands to run, all over town.  I have been ignoring so many things in my life in order to accommodate my crappy job.

One of the things that happened last week was a conversation I had after my improv class with the woman I thought might be stalking me.  She commented that she had worked a total of 2 and a half hours all day long.  I told her I envious of her and had been working so much that, technically I was still working.  She told me I should apply with her company and told me where to go on line to find job information.

She works for a company owned by the evil AOL Time Warner, in their broadcasting division.  I asked her if they have jobs that pay in a particular salary range and she said yes.  She told me about all the benefits the company pays and how great it is.

So I did some searching and found a few jobs that I am qualified for.  One of them is a training job that sounds perfect.  It is sort of like what I already do, only better.  The stalker woman told me it pays pretty well and one of the managers of that department is a friend of her best friend.  She told me I should contact her and send my resume and talk to her in person.

The stalker woman was extremely helpful.  I really should give her a name, for the purposes of this diary.  So I think I'll call her Nancy.  So Nancy is trying to hook me up with a job at this great corporation, and even if nothing comes of it I am completely happy to feel I am making some sort of progress.

I worked on my resume this past weekend and submitted it on line.  And forwarded it to a Nancy who sent it to her friend in the department.  Today I called the friend and told her I would love to interview for a position. She was very nice to me and explained that they get a huge volume of applicants every day but she would hand my resume over to the people who are hiring for that position.  She was just heading off to a meeting with them.

My heart started pounding in my chest.  This is just too much.  Everyone is so nice to me.  I look forward to the day when I can tell my bosses that I am resigning my current position in order to take a new job that pays more, has better benefits and does not require that I work 50 hours per week.  I talked to some of my coworkers, too and they would very much like to quit as soon as possible.

Yesterday, Monday, when I went to work I hoped that no one said the wrong thing to me forcing me to quit on the spot.  It was another one of those days where the wrong thing would have made me snap like a dry twig, go off the deep end and start shouting and throwing things.  In my mind I know that I have to be very careful not to jeopardize my financial security.  I want to at least be able to draw unemployment insurance.  I would not be able to do that if I quit my job.

Yes, better I make them fire me.  Not that I think they will.

Tonight my improv class was cancelled.  The weather has been so bad today that most of the people in my class we not able to make it.  There have been tornado warnings, heavy rain, streets washed out, all kinds of weird weather.

Today I talked to one of my clients who experienced some of the recent tornadoes in a neighboring state.  One of the employees and her daughter were killed when their house was destroyed the other day.  Horrible.  It's hard for me even to imagine what it would be like if one of the guys I work with never came back to work because he was killed in a tornado.

What an odd bunch of things are going on these days.

This morning we had the blinds open in the office but it was still pitch black outside. It was ominous. Dark, thick clouds hovering low over the skyline.  It looked like a special effect in a movie.  And then the rain started. And the tornado warnings.

So that's what I've been up to lately.  I just haven't had much time to read or write on line.  It takes me forever to write a resume.  Even if I am updating it.  But I did get some good feedback on it.  Now if I can just get some job offers.

Jimmy
 

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